Who am I?

Well every homosapien is suppose to have an individuality…an identity of his own…so here is the story of a girl Sia who went in search of her identity….

Sia was sitting on her couch when suddenly the thought of defining herself came to her mind, five hours of introspection and still she was not able to define herself… what her perceptions were… what was her philosophy of life. Confused Sia finally got up as her mother was calling her for dinner, but the hurricane of questions and thoughts was still grinding her brain. Even on the dinner table she was all engrossed in her own world of mysteries about her self…her inner self. As she returned to her room an idea struck her…she always thought that she was really good at judging people …so she decided that she will find a friend who is exactly like her and then she would be able to get the answers to all her questions….and that relieved her a lot, its always a relief to know that there is or would be somebody to take your burdens and worries away…maybe that’s why everybody looks for a friend, a partner.

Well she was really lucky she didn’t had to wait for long, she was just taking her ‘Bloodline’ as she saw her image in the mirror, and there she was… the image was exactly like her and she realised that she had found what she was searching for…somebody who was exactly like her in every sense…oh how happy she was at her notion of being alike…but truth find its way out soon…her heart was suppose to be broken coz she had chosen it that way, she had made a wrong decision as every instantaneous decision is. But unaware of the future Sia sat there observing her soul mate for long then suddenly she remembered her Bloodline and picked it up to see who was the man trying to destroy Elizabeth’s dreams, as see read the climax she saw her friend again …smiled and turned the page… and to her horror she saw that her friend was not what she thought… she was not like her but in fact she was just opposite exactly opposite… horrified she read the last page to find that Elizabeth’s offender was her very best friend her own uncle. She looked up again at her friend and all she could do was cry on her stupidity… how could she put her trust in someone in a moments thought… how could she be so impulsive in matters like these…. But she was betrayed and that also by herself… anyway she wanted to get out of it, she didn’t want to punish herself that also for somebody who has not given her anything but few fake moments of happiness…She wiped her tears and thought to begin every thing all over again…She was too tired of the day so she decided to go to sleep…went in and changed…switched off the tube light and turned her night lamp on…but still her mind was not at peace. All she wanted now was somebody on whom she could really rely on…somebody she could trust, who would not leave her midway.

She was just thinking about all this when she observed her shadow moving with her as she strolled across the room. It was not attractive but all she wanted was a ‘true’ friend… no matter how he looked… she thought for a moment and then again the same hope of fulfilment arose within her…. and this time she was really sure about her choice…ah but the girl was wrong again she had done the same mistake of trusting too early… and one has to pay for every mistake you do in this market. She was far too happy to realise what was going wrong…far too involved to see the truth… but she had to know one day…a baseless notion can not go on for ever. As she turned the lamp off to sleep she realised the truth … she was all alone again…her friend was just a friend of good times and in dark he was nowhere to be seen. This time she didn’t cry… she had got used to her betraying, misguiding self. She just laid there thinking about all that had happened to her…she was just trying to figure out where did she go wrong when she realised that whatever happened was not wrong…she is complete in herself…she never needed someone else to define herself…all she needed to do was to remove that image of ego and that shadow of a good time’s friend from her life and she was all complete. She found her identity. She was Sia.